Emotional Storms & Grieving

In Dancing Alone: Learning to Live Again I journal about emotions that swirled about me. I had to learn to live with them or be overwhelmed by them. Here is an excerpt about the emotions I experienced from Dancing Alone: Learning to Live Again:

“I think about the emotions that flood me without notice. They arrive with gale force winds in any environment and spark from any trigger. I sum up how my emotions affect me in four simple, easy-to-understand words: It hurts like hell.

It hurts in a way only one who experienced the pain of losing someone they love understands. What does it feel like? It’s not physical pain, yet I experience it physically deep in the pit of my stomach, with a clenched jaw, or through the endless tossing and turning at three in the morning when sleep does not return. It hurts like hell.

I run from away from dealing with my emotions by engaging in exercise, prayer, and writing. Even in those times of distraction, my emotions rear their ugly heads into my space, grab ahold of me, and throw me to the floor. My emotions stand over me, waving their fists and daring me to get up, all too willing to knock me down again. I wearily rise to my knees. I stand again, my legs wobbly. I try to clear my head. It hurts like hell.”

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