In Episode 28 of my podcast, Journey from Grief to Healing, I describe how grieving and its accompanying partner suffering changed me. It is as if I am seeing my world with a different set of eyes. I also share the fourth promise I made to myself with M.
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NOTE: I spent many years in formal education. I began in kindergarten and worked my way through high school to college. I eventually went to graduate school and earned my doctoral degree. I learned lots of things. What I learned on my life’s journey is worthy of three or four doctoral degrees. My teachers were experiences, friends, enemies, strangers, and loved ones. Pain, suffering, joy, and happiness were also my teachers. If we’re awake on our journey there are precious nuggets of knowledge to learn. Some of the wisest people I’ve met did not have the formal education I had, but they accumulated wisdom that formal education could never teach.
In Episode 16 of my podcast, Journey from Grief to Healing, I describe grieving as walking through a parallel universe of not knowing. I do not know how it will end. I do not know when it will end. I do not know my way through. This is what grieving feels like to me.
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In Episode 15 from my podcast, Journey from Grief to Healing, M wanted me to continue to reflect on my emptiness. The only thing I was sure of was I wasn’t sure of much. M spoke some difficult truths .M said suffering for all humans was unavoidable. I didn’t want to hear it, but I recognized its truth.
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In Episode 14 of my podcast, Journey from Grief to Healing, M asks me what I am feeling. She makes the distinction between how I feel and what I feel. It took me a while to process my grieving feelings. I described Babe’s death as an emptiness that could never be filled. M helps me to understand why the feeling emptiness accompanies grieving.
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Episode 10 from my Podcast: Journey From Grief to Healing. This was a tough journal entry. It opened up many raw wounds. I recalled my experiences with doctors and hospital administrators who cared more about financial status than about patients. The real heroes for me were the RN’s and CMA’s who were overworked and underpaid. My grieving andf suffering were open wounds.
You can listen to this episode on any podcast app. You can also click on the following link to listen to it.
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Episode 9 from my Podcast: Journey From Grief to Healing. My journaling continues to be hard but necessary work during my grieving journey. In Episode 9 I try to release the anger I felt toward the doctors who were treating Babe. I realize that holding onto the anger has one victim and the victim is me. You can listen to the podcast on your favorite podcast app or click on this link to listen to it now:
https://raycalabrese.podbean.com/e/episode-9-the-grieving-process-journaling-helps-me-to-release-my-anger/
Episode 8 from my Podcast: Journey from Grief to Healing: M encouraged me to journal as a way to get in touch with my emotions related to my grieving and accompanying suffering. I didn’t realize the depth and breadth of emotions I had been repressing as I grieved. I discovered journal is a big help in working through grief. You can listen to the podcast at this link on check it out on your favorite podcasting app.
https://raycalabrese.podbean.com/e/episode-8-grieving-and-suffering-touched-every-line-in-my-journal/
Episode 6 from my podcast Journey from Grief to Healing shares an important truth I learned by attending a grieving group. Those who attended the grieving group with me became my teachers. I learned that we all grieve differently. For each of us who grieve, the suffering hurts like hell. M encourages me to start making new friends.
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Attending a grieving group helped me. The first group I attended didn’t work out. But M pushed me to try another group and it was very beneficial. Listen to Episode 5 on my Podcast: Journey from Grief to Healing
https://raycalabrese.podbean.com/e/my-grieving-group-experience/
